Friday, December 30, 2022

It's Never Enough

 No matter what I do, how hard I work, it's never enough.

How can that be? I give everything I have, most days I fall asleep as soon as I stop moving, literally. I fall asleep at stop signs, while I'm driving!

And it's not enough.

Can someone be too diverse? Have too many interests? Want too much from life? 

Why can't I have been simpler, dumber maybe? Would I be able to be happy then? If I didn't want so much? If I just wanted a job, and enough to get by. 

Not grow and expand myself constantly?


Gruffen was my little friend, I miss him

 Gruffen

12/28/2022

Every morning I wake up and I think of him in the ground. I want to lay with him, and let him know he is loved, and he is not alone, and that he was the best little boy.

I don't know how to process this grief, it is unbearable.

My heart is broken, I don't know how to go on